~headxfonexgurl

weathervanes my one and lonely.

i really like this song...


but yea...wow so much is going on right now...

things with david just keep going down hill. he keeps telling me i just need to block everything out so its easier to forget. and i try that. and then everything just washes over me again. i tried to tell him that i couldn't talk to him anymore cause it was too hard...but i just couldn't do it.
and in all of this mess i keep pushing away the people that mean the most to me...and i can't help it. i'm so angry all the time that i yell at people that i don't want to be mean to. theres just sooo much going through me right now i don't know what to do.

i miss him so much...like...i miss everything. the way i felt whenever i was around him or i knew i was gonna get to see him. the way he'd start acting silly after we'd take naps together. that whenever we talked on the phone at night, he always told me how much he missed me and that i should come cuddle with him. i miss him coming over and us going out and chilling in narnia(my backyard). i miss going to his house and watching movies with him. i miss feeling his arms around me. i miss how he smells. i miss everything...

and he doesn't get it...

i never thought he'd be the guy to break my heart again...